i have found myself doing anything and everything possible to put off studying. i will pay for it all tomorrow....
on a lighter note, imma cited for switchfoot!!! finally get to go to another of their concerts =) jan 9 im ready.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Saturday, December 5, 2009
With this world in mind,
We strive for goals,
Always on the fast track,
Don’t want to fall behind
Or judgment will come
By the hands of others
Comparing each to the next.
And so we will mindlessly go on
Never questioning
Never wavering
From this single-minded thinking
And our goals do not satisfy
As instant gratification
Is here in an instant and gone in the next.
Yet moving from goal to goal,
We’re blind
To the emptiness,
To the complacency,
That we fall into.
This rut,
Which becomes a well,
So deep,
That light is but a speck,
When we dare to look up.
And the thought
That we're comfortable,
Our place is at this bottom,
Takes over,
And we think this is normal.
But for those who dare to look beyond,
The recognition of something more,
Something greater,
Something better,
Something that is good.
For those who realize,
We are so deep down,
We are so low,
Are pulled back up,
Out of "normal",
Into a presence,
Of something else.
An indescribable force,
That judges
But forgives,
That sacrifices
To redeem,
That takes my life
To save it.
We strive for goals,
Always on the fast track,
Don’t want to fall behind
Or judgment will come
By the hands of others
Comparing each to the next.
And so we will mindlessly go on
Never questioning
Never wavering
From this single-minded thinking
And our goals do not satisfy
As instant gratification
Is here in an instant and gone in the next.
Yet moving from goal to goal,
We’re blind
To the emptiness,
To the complacency,
That we fall into.
This rut,
Which becomes a well,
So deep,
That light is but a speck,
When we dare to look up.
And the thought
That we're comfortable,
Our place is at this bottom,
Takes over,
And we think this is normal.
But for those who dare to look beyond,
The recognition of something more,
Something greater,
Something better,
Something that is good.
For those who realize,
We are so deep down,
We are so low,
Are pulled back up,
Out of "normal",
Into a presence,
Of something else.
An indescribable force,
That judges
But forgives,
That sacrifices
To redeem,
That takes my life
To save it.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
=]
Fall 2009 semester is finally over!! Well except for finals..and reviews next week....but no more lectures or discussions =) how wonderful. Surprising how quickly the semester has gone by, though I'm not complaining. Anyhoo here's a quick photo update on thanksgiving.
we decided to go black friday shopping again this year so we met up after thanksgiving dinner, played a lot of nerts (what a super fun addicting game), got fresh donuts at bob's donuts, and headed off to old navy for their wonderful $15 jeans deal. decided we didn't want to wait in line for H&M to open at 5 so we hung out in our usually place at union square.
yeah i never understand what this guy is doing
the lights on the poles were different this year...=(
but we're always there to cheer each other up =)
lots of hugging going on.......though greg seems way more happy about it than kevin...
........nevermind hahaha
and what's a spera reunion without trapping kevin in a rotating door
2nd annual trip to the St. Francis to ride their elevators and take pictures of a wonderful view. they already had 2 giant christmas trees up and decorated! presents galore!!
H&M opened and keegan and I decided to try on the most random things we could find
i picked out a very normal set of accessories for keegan to try.....
...and she picks this out for me....oo joy....
keegan chris greg and i decided to pick out the worst outfits for each other. can you guess who won? =p
lots of fun and an overall great day. left my wallet at greg's but chris was kind enough to drop it off later.....with his trash inside of it....
Another week and they're all back again yayyyyy =]
we decided to go black friday shopping again this year so we met up after thanksgiving dinner, played a lot of nerts (what a super fun addicting game), got fresh donuts at bob's donuts, and headed off to old navy for their wonderful $15 jeans deal. decided we didn't want to wait in line for H&M to open at 5 so we hung out in our usually place at union square.
yeah i never understand what this guy is doing
the lights on the poles were different this year...=(
but we're always there to cheer each other up =)
lots of hugging going on.......though greg seems way more happy about it than kevin...
........nevermind hahaha
and what's a spera reunion without trapping kevin in a rotating door
2nd annual trip to the St. Francis to ride their elevators and take pictures of a wonderful view. they already had 2 giant christmas trees up and decorated! presents galore!!
H&M opened and keegan and I decided to try on the most random things we could find
i picked out a very normal set of accessories for keegan to try.....
...and she picks this out for me....oo joy....
keegan chris greg and i decided to pick out the worst outfits for each other. can you guess who won? =p
lots of fun and an overall great day. left my wallet at greg's but chris was kind enough to drop it off later.....with his trash inside of it....
Another week and they're all back again yayyyyy =]
Saturday, November 14, 2009
post 100
For awhile now
I’ve had trouble putting my thoughts into words
My desire to be eloquent
For my words to have meaning to everyone
For the praises of others
This is what I struggle with
But the words that you have spoken to me
The song of love that you have placed in my heart
Remains in its true form
And when I am only seeking your praise
Will these words come out right
Will this song be yours
So you will be at the center
And not myself
I attempt to put into words
My desire for you
The blessings I have received
The calm you have given me
And I always go back to one word
Grace
Because without it
I would not be here
We would not be here
I would not have been saved
And instead would be forever lost
In a sea of faces
But now I know better
And to you I stand above it all
Because my desires in life
Are no longer monetary
Or longing for the acceptance of others
Because these things are of this world
And will not last
But you have been here before I was
You are here now
And you will be here forevermore
How can anyone put all these emotions into words
How can I sum up
Everything you have done for me
For this world
No matter what I say
I will only be scratching at the surface
And I will still be left with one word,
Grace
I always end up comparing myself to others.
They're more artistic, better with words, a better voice.
And i fall into this trap
that Satan has put in my path.
And i am consumed with timidity,
always aware, also calculating of what others think of me.
I worry about who reads this blog, what they think,
do they agree, do they think
I'm just saying words that have no link.
But i know better than this.
That God will always look at my heart first.
That even if no one else understands what I'm trying to bring across,
God will not be at a loss,
for He never is.
And this will bring a smile to his face,
because His child has felt His endless grace,
His endless love
His warm embrace
And He will rejoice,
that another has been saved
*don't worry I wasn't trying to rap or anything it actually just ended up rhyming when it was all written out*
I’ve had trouble putting my thoughts into words
My desire to be eloquent
For my words to have meaning to everyone
For the praises of others
This is what I struggle with
But the words that you have spoken to me
The song of love that you have placed in my heart
Remains in its true form
And when I am only seeking your praise
Will these words come out right
Will this song be yours
So you will be at the center
And not myself
I attempt to put into words
My desire for you
The blessings I have received
The calm you have given me
And I always go back to one word
Grace
Because without it
I would not be here
We would not be here
I would not have been saved
And instead would be forever lost
In a sea of faces
But now I know better
And to you I stand above it all
Because my desires in life
Are no longer monetary
Or longing for the acceptance of others
Because these things are of this world
And will not last
But you have been here before I was
You are here now
And you will be here forevermore
How can anyone put all these emotions into words
How can I sum up
Everything you have done for me
For this world
No matter what I say
I will only be scratching at the surface
And I will still be left with one word,
Grace
I always end up comparing myself to others.
They're more artistic, better with words, a better voice.
And i fall into this trap
that Satan has put in my path.
And i am consumed with timidity,
always aware, also calculating of what others think of me.
I worry about who reads this blog, what they think,
do they agree, do they think
I'm just saying words that have no link.
But i know better than this.
That God will always look at my heart first.
That even if no one else understands what I'm trying to bring across,
God will not be at a loss,
for He never is.
And this will bring a smile to his face,
because His child has felt His endless grace,
His endless love
His warm embrace
And He will rejoice,
that another has been saved
*don't worry I wasn't trying to rap or anything it actually just ended up rhyming when it was all written out*
Friday, November 13, 2009
Operation Christmas Child
Sorry this is coming so late but I was wondering if anyone was interested in doing Operation Christmas Child with me this year. The drop of days for the boxes will actually be this coming week so if you want to join me in sending a couple of boxes drop a comment or email me =]
dont know what I'm talking about?
http://www.samaritanspurse.org/index.php/OCC/
dont know what I'm talking about?
http://www.samaritanspurse.org/index.php/OCC/
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Safe
"Course He isn’t safe. But He’s good. He’s the King"
So this here was posted up before I went off to IV's Fall Conference retreat. I was given a CD full of sermons a couple years ago and one of the tracks that always stuck with me was one in which Derek Webb introduces his song, "Wedding Dress".(very blunt but good song btw. should give it a listen or ask if you want the file =]) Anyhoo he talks about how being a Christian and the Christian faith is NOT SAFE. It is NOT an easy path.
In Narnia when the kids first ask about Aslan, the response they receive is that he is not safe, but he's good. He's the King. I went into Fall Con with this thought very heavy on my heart. Did I really know what this meant or did it catch my attention because it sounded good? I didn't really understand it but God made is so known to me this past weekend that IN ALL THINGS He is still very much so present and He is AT WORK and He is GOOD
tbd
So this here was posted up before I went off to IV's Fall Conference retreat. I was given a CD full of sermons a couple years ago and one of the tracks that always stuck with me was one in which Derek Webb introduces his song, "Wedding Dress".(very blunt but good song btw. should give it a listen or ask if you want the file =]) Anyhoo he talks about how being a Christian and the Christian faith is NOT SAFE. It is NOT an easy path.
In Narnia when the kids first ask about Aslan, the response they receive is that he is not safe, but he's good. He's the King. I went into Fall Con with this thought very heavy on my heart. Did I really know what this meant or did it catch my attention because it sounded good? I didn't really understand it but God made is so known to me this past weekend that IN ALL THINGS He is still very much so present and He is AT WORK and He is GOOD
tbd
