finally

kcdc has officially started!...3 weeks ago.... yeah i know im pretty slow on updating but that can be expected for the next month or so. bur for now, here's the scoop

kcdc has been tiring. thats not a very big surprise but for some reason, this year feels even more draining. maybe its working with kids that are older or maybe its the new site but for the first week, i would end up not being able to move once i got on the couch. it was pretty bad. thankfully im getting used to it and i've been able to actually get things done after kcdc is over.
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but yeah for sure this year has been a struggle but at the same time its been a really big blessing. i have the same group i worked with for 3 years now and so it was kind of disappointing to see the numbers go back down to those of my first year with them but i think it forced me to see the urge of sharing God's love with each individual child because in all honestly there is always the possibility that they choose not to come back to the program and then what happens right? so ive kind of decided to take a no inhibitions attitude this year. i refuse to let my own comfort zone or my limited ability to love, stand in the way of sharing Christ with these kids both in words and in action.

jump of topics but for those who remember, last june was the month that ctbc held our youth praise night, "Hold up wait a minute". For the praise night last year, band decided to perform 2 original songs. I had the chance to write one of the songs but honestly, i was pretty uncomfortable about it. It wasn't a matter of humility, but more simply I didn't think the song was very good in comparison to the other one, i didnt' feel like i could really sing it, and all in all, i was just embarrassed by the whole thing. but one of the things that i feel God has really taught be in this past year is that it isn't mine, nothing is. The words that come out of my mouth are not mine, they are the sole property of God. I am merely a tool, an instrument if you will, of God and I should be so honored that He would choose someone as lowly as me to take part in His plan. If i were ashamed or embarrassed, wouldn't that mean i was ashamed or embarrassed of God? I would like to think not.

gonna end with this little note. I encourage anyone who reads this to do something. in everything that you do, BE BOLD!