take 2

first week of kcdc

inhibitions

reservations

and song writing take 2

standing on a curb

as i was standing on a street corner, waiting for the light to turn from red to green, there were several people who decided it wasnt worth the time to wait and proceeded to jaywalk across the street. to where you may ask? simply across the street to the bus stop...where there was no bus coming. it made me wonder, what was the rush? did they simply cross the street to make it seem like they were closer to getting on the bus than they actually were? did they think that being at the bus stop made the bus come more quickly? or did they even realize that their impatience was completely unnecessary?

though i waited to cross that street, i must admit that i AM STILL that jaywalker, not content to stay where i am and wait, but rather impatient to rush towards my goal, no matter how empty that goal may be.

now sometimes its better to be impatient, to want to take initiative, to have a goal in mind and let nothing stand in the way of reaching it. for the past few months, that is how i feel like concerning my walk. ive been impatient, wanting change within myself, as well as within fellowship and the church. but what is my goal then? am i simply rushing to the other side, only to have to wait longer, accomplishing nothing while making myself believe i have accomplished much? or am i being told to stand and wait, and let change come on God's time rather than my own? we'll shall see.

bad memory

yeahhhhh im gonna start being bad at updating now. and the things i was gonna update about.....well if you really want to know you can ask me but i think im just gonna bypass most of it. but yup summer is here early this year and im getting back into the hang of being home full time. its definitely different. but as i was cleaning and organizing my room, i came across some pretty interesting artifacts. and yes i do consider them artifacts. the first of which are these tshirts.


now they may not been much to most all of you but these tshirts were part of the best years of high school for me. got one every year i participated in the world affairs challenge. the simple decision to do this project has basically changed the course of my life. and i kid you not when i say this. now i could always find a few of them but this is one of the first times ive had all of them together at once and it was just a nice sight to see for me.

artifact #2

.....stupid photographers who always make children pose oddly......but like it or not(more like embarrassed by it or not) its cool to have a tshirt with my 4/5 year old face on it. definitely worthy of being considered artifact #2

and though i found many different random things this was probably one of the most significant


back in sophmore year for modern world in vedars class, he had us do up an identity chart. it was a pretty simple assignment. take a picture of yourself(i took the picture off to put on my identity chart for his class the following year- 8th grade softball pic) write down 10 things people see me as as well as 10 things i see myself as. simple enough. it just meant asking people on aim. lastly we had to complete the 3 phrases, i can, i value, and i need.

i guess you can say that the 10th grade judy and college judy is pretty different from one another. back then, i had "i need a good eduation", "i value my relationships with my friends and family" and "i can always find comfort in my friends" on my identity chart. if i were to make one up now, i would like to think my answers would be slightly different, slightly more centered on God. my priorities have changed, as have my ways of thinking and my attitude. seeing this poster again has made me realize just how different i am than the person i used to be. not really sure where im going with this post. and maybe for now, ill just leave it at that....