standing on a curb

as i was standing on a street corner, waiting for the light to turn from red to green, there were several people who decided it wasnt worth the time to wait and proceeded to jaywalk across the street. to where you may ask? simply across the street to the bus stop...where there was no bus coming. it made me wonder, what was the rush? did they simply cross the street to make it seem like they were closer to getting on the bus than they actually were? did they think that being at the bus stop made the bus come more quickly? or did they even realize that their impatience was completely unnecessary?

though i waited to cross that street, i must admit that i AM STILL that jaywalker, not content to stay where i am and wait, but rather impatient to rush towards my goal, no matter how empty that goal may be.

now sometimes its better to be impatient, to want to take initiative, to have a goal in mind and let nothing stand in the way of reaching it. for the past few months, that is how i feel like concerning my walk. ive been impatient, wanting change within myself, as well as within fellowship and the church. but what is my goal then? am i simply rushing to the other side, only to have to wait longer, accomplishing nothing while making myself believe i have accomplished much? or am i being told to stand and wait, and let change come on God's time rather than my own? we'll shall see.