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For awhile now
I’ve had trouble putting my thoughts into words
My desire to be eloquent
For my words to have meaning to everyone
For the praises of others
This is what I struggle with

But the words that you have spoken to me
The song of love that you have placed in my heart
Remains in its true form
And when I am only seeking your praise
Will these words come out right
Will this song be yours
So you will be at the center
And not myself

I attempt to put into words
My desire for you
The blessings I have received
The calm you have given me
And I always go back to one word
Grace

Because without it
I would not be here
We would not be here

I would not have been saved
And instead would be forever lost
In a sea of faces
But now I know better
And to you I stand above it all
Because my desires in life
Are no longer monetary
Or longing for the acceptance of others
Because these things are of this world
And will not last

But you have been here before I was
You are here now
And you will be here forevermore

How can anyone put all these emotions into words
How can I sum up
Everything you have done for me
For this world
No matter what I say
I will only be scratching at the surface
And I will still be left with one word,
Grace




I always end up comparing myself to others.
They're more artistic, better with words, a better voice.
And i fall into this trap
that Satan has put in my path.
And i am consumed with timidity,
always aware, also calculating of what others think of me.
I worry about who reads this blog, what they think,
do they agree, do they think
I'm just saying words that have no link.
But i know better than this.

That God will always look at my heart first.
That even if no one else understands what I'm trying to bring across,
God will not be at a loss,
for He never is.

And this will bring a smile to his face,
because His child has felt His endless grace,
His endless love
His warm embrace
And He will rejoice,
that another has been saved

*don't worry I wasn't trying to rap or anything it actually just ended up rhyming when it was all written out*

Operation Christmas Child

Sorry this is coming so late but I was wondering if anyone was interested in doing Operation Christmas Child with me this year. The drop of days for the boxes will actually be this coming week so if you want to join me in sending a couple of boxes drop a comment or email me =]

dont know what I'm talking about?

http://www.samaritanspurse.org/index.php/OCC/

Safe

"Course He isn’t safe. But He’s good. He’s the King"

So this here was posted up before I went off to IV's Fall Conference retreat. I was given a CD full of sermons a couple years ago and one of the tracks that always stuck with me was one in which Derek Webb introduces his song, "Wedding Dress".(very blunt but good song btw. should give it a listen or ask if you want the file =]) Anyhoo he talks about how being a Christian and the Christian faith is NOT SAFE. It is NOT an easy path.

In Narnia when the kids first ask about Aslan, the response they receive is that he is not safe, but he's good. He's the King. I went into Fall Con with this thought very heavy on my heart. Did I really know what this meant or did it catch my attention because it sounded good? I didn't really understand it but God made is so known to me this past weekend that IN ALL THINGS He is still very much so present and He is AT WORK and He is GOOD

tbd

i know this video has been out for awhile but for some reason I decided to watch it again and it doesnt get old!

notebooks

=[ i have this weird habit that if I do not write down my homework I am unable to even start it. For the past year I've been using the kind of notebook observed up top and I love it! It's separated by colors and has a title box at the top where i can put the title. Sadly to say though, I have been unable to find said notebook at the Berkeley student store, in desperate need for a new one, I decided to try to find it online, just to find that it is discontinued and if I want to buy a few of the remaining ones I would have to spend $15 on shipping alone!!!! *sigh...this saddens me...so i thought i would share it =] okay that's all

giants

hehehe funnnnnny