first week of kcdc
inhibitions
reservations
and song writing take 2
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Saturday, June 13, 2009
standing on a curb
as i was standing on a street corner, waiting for the light to turn from red to green, there were several people who decided it wasnt worth the time to wait and proceeded to jaywalk across the street. to where you may ask? simply across the street to the bus stop...where there was no bus coming. it made me wonder, what was the rush? did they simply cross the street to make it seem like they were closer to getting on the bus than they actually were? did they think that being at the bus stop made the bus come more quickly? or did they even realize that their impatience was completely unnecessary?
though i waited to cross that street, i must admit that i AM STILL that jaywalker, not content to stay where i am and wait, but rather impatient to rush towards my goal, no matter how empty that goal may be.
now sometimes its better to be impatient, to want to take initiative, to have a goal in mind and let nothing stand in the way of reaching it. for the past few months, that is how i feel like concerning my walk. ive been impatient, wanting change within myself, as well as within fellowship and the church. but what is my goal then? am i simply rushing to the other side, only to have to wait longer, accomplishing nothing while making myself believe i have accomplished much? or am i being told to stand and wait, and let change come on God's time rather than my own? we'll shall see.
though i waited to cross that street, i must admit that i AM STILL that jaywalker, not content to stay where i am and wait, but rather impatient to rush towards my goal, no matter how empty that goal may be.
now sometimes its better to be impatient, to want to take initiative, to have a goal in mind and let nothing stand in the way of reaching it. for the past few months, that is how i feel like concerning my walk. ive been impatient, wanting change within myself, as well as within fellowship and the church. but what is my goal then? am i simply rushing to the other side, only to have to wait longer, accomplishing nothing while making myself believe i have accomplished much? or am i being told to stand and wait, and let change come on God's time rather than my own? we'll shall see.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
bad memory
yeahhhhh im gonna start being bad at updating now. and the things i was gonna update about.....well if you really want to know you can ask me but i think im just gonna bypass most of it. but yup summer is here early this year and im getting back into the hang of being home full time. its definitely different. but as i was cleaning and organizing my room, i came across some pretty interesting artifacts. and yes i do consider them artifacts. the first of which are these tshirts.
now they may not been much to most all of you but these tshirts were part of the best years of high school for me. got one every year i participated in the world affairs challenge. the simple decision to do this project has basically changed the course of my life. and i kid you not when i say this. now i could always find a few of them but this is one of the first times ive had all of them together at once and it was just a nice sight to see for me.
artifact #2
.....stupid photographers who always make children pose oddly......but like it or not(more like embarrassed by it or not) its cool to have a tshirt with my 4/5 year old face on it. definitely worthy of being considered artifact #2
and though i found many different random things this was probably one of the most significant
back in sophmore year for modern world in vedars class, he had us do up an identity chart. it was a pretty simple assignment. take a picture of yourself(i took the picture off to put on my identity chart for his class the following year- 8th grade softball pic) write down 10 things people see me as as well as 10 things i see myself as. simple enough. it just meant asking people on aim. lastly we had to complete the 3 phrases, i can, i value, and i need.
i guess you can say that the 10th grade judy and college judy is pretty different from one another. back then, i had "i need a good eduation", "i value my relationships with my friends and family" and "i can always find comfort in my friends" on my identity chart. if i were to make one up now, i would like to think my answers would be slightly different, slightly more centered on God. my priorities have changed, as have my ways of thinking and my attitude. seeing this poster again has made me realize just how different i am than the person i used to be. not really sure where im going with this post. and maybe for now, ill just leave it at that....
now they may not been much to most all of you but these tshirts were part of the best years of high school for me. got one every year i participated in the world affairs challenge. the simple decision to do this project has basically changed the course of my life. and i kid you not when i say this. now i could always find a few of them but this is one of the first times ive had all of them together at once and it was just a nice sight to see for me.
artifact #2
.....stupid photographers who always make children pose oddly......but like it or not(more like embarrassed by it or not) its cool to have a tshirt with my 4/5 year old face on it. definitely worthy of being considered artifact #2
and though i found many different random things this was probably one of the most significant
back in sophmore year for modern world in vedars class, he had us do up an identity chart. it was a pretty simple assignment. take a picture of yourself(i took the picture off to put on my identity chart for his class the following year- 8th grade softball pic) write down 10 things people see me as as well as 10 things i see myself as. simple enough. it just meant asking people on aim. lastly we had to complete the 3 phrases, i can, i value, and i need.
i guess you can say that the 10th grade judy and college judy is pretty different from one another. back then, i had "i need a good eduation", "i value my relationships with my friends and family" and "i can always find comfort in my friends" on my identity chart. if i were to make one up now, i would like to think my answers would be slightly different, slightly more centered on God. my priorities have changed, as have my ways of thinking and my attitude. seeing this poster again has made me realize just how different i am than the person i used to be. not really sure where im going with this post. and maybe for now, ill just leave it at that....
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
time to go white?
Sunday, May 24, 2009
patience is a virtue
okay so it seems as if im busier now that finals are over than when i was studying for them! what with all the packing and unpacking and then cleaning of the multiple rooms and all that stuff. update will come....eventually i aim for before wednesday. but for now im just enjoying the end of school(though it is sad that people are leaving =( ) but yeah its been a really good year, got lots to be thankful for, and am definitely realizing that ive truly been blessed this year. end with that for now. actually ill end with a congrats to the class of '09 (specifically matt and tiff..though i do not believe they read this)
Monday, May 18, 2009
blog update part 1
okay so i realized that i actually do have a lot of things to talk about. so much in fact that i decided to split my post into 2 parts. and so to avoid studying and sleeping, i shall post part 1 up today and then part 2 after my final.
anyhoo, to address my first mini outline blog, things im looking forward to:
1. possible TB or not TB presentation take 2? we shall see if we can set it up ( its okay if you have no idea what im talking about. im sure thats pretty common)
2. inductive bible study! for those of you who don't know, I've really gotten on board with inductive bible study. i just feel like its really unbiased. like usually certain passages are known to cover certain topics but when you go through a passage inductively, you get such a different perspective and plus i always feel like when i read a passage to do for lesson or whatever, i manipulate phrases and different parts of the passage so that i get a specific message at the end but with inductive bible study, you get what you get and you just take the word for the purpose it was written. that being said, i was so moved by the bible study that we've done these past 2 semesters that i've asked a couple of people(both christians and non) if theyd be willing to have some bible study during the summer and so far everyone is up for it so yay!
very much so connected to that is what i wanted to talk about concerning pride.
i think going into trying to share Christ with non believers, I always feel like I need to be eloquent or I need to be able to answer all their questions etc etc. I think the mentality I had was that I should be a good enough Christian that I should be able to bring others to Christ. but the problem with that is pride. I think I have to constantly remind myself that it is never what we can do. In the end, it will all be God. Nothing we say or do can really change anyone's heart. Rather, it will be in God's time and God's will when people come to know Him. Sure we are used by Him and He has a purpose for us and He wants us to share the good news but remember, it is not what we do but rather what He does through us.
been lacking of sleep so that will be all of part 1
things to look forward to in part 2?
love - what it is, but more importantly, what it is not
what went down during our last bible study group time and community time
*ill post up some pics soon too but if you really can't wait that long then just check fb*
anyhoo, to address my first mini outline blog, things im looking forward to:
1. possible TB or not TB presentation take 2? we shall see if we can set it up ( its okay if you have no idea what im talking about. im sure thats pretty common)
2. inductive bible study! for those of you who don't know, I've really gotten on board with inductive bible study. i just feel like its really unbiased. like usually certain passages are known to cover certain topics but when you go through a passage inductively, you get such a different perspective and plus i always feel like when i read a passage to do for lesson or whatever, i manipulate phrases and different parts of the passage so that i get a specific message at the end but with inductive bible study, you get what you get and you just take the word for the purpose it was written. that being said, i was so moved by the bible study that we've done these past 2 semesters that i've asked a couple of people(both christians and non) if theyd be willing to have some bible study during the summer and so far everyone is up for it so yay!
very much so connected to that is what i wanted to talk about concerning pride.
i think going into trying to share Christ with non believers, I always feel like I need to be eloquent or I need to be able to answer all their questions etc etc. I think the mentality I had was that I should be a good enough Christian that I should be able to bring others to Christ. but the problem with that is pride. I think I have to constantly remind myself that it is never what we can do. In the end, it will all be God. Nothing we say or do can really change anyone's heart. Rather, it will be in God's time and God's will when people come to know Him. Sure we are used by Him and He has a purpose for us and He wants us to share the good news but remember, it is not what we do but rather what He does through us.
been lacking of sleep so that will be all of part 1
things to look forward to in part 2?
love - what it is, but more importantly, what it is not
what went down during our last bible study group time and community time
*ill post up some pics soon too but if you really can't wait that long then just check fb*
Sunday, May 17, 2009
update outline
ive had quite a few mini posts these past weeks but i will do a serious update some time soon ie after my finals are over...well not that im really studying at the moment anyway.
so i am once again back in the city......though ill be here for less than 24 hrs before heading back to school..........but these past few weeks ive been bringing home more and more clothes and i finally could no longer ignore the pile of clothes on my couch that needed to be folded and put away(and no the clothes does not stay in my living room i have an old couch in my room.............) but anyhoo i decided to totally clean my closet and what not and i have found quite a few gems. preview?
my super old track sweatshirt(from way back in the day)
my old softball uniform
all my WAF spera tshirts..... if i dont remember, someone remind me to posts some pics
okay thats it for now
ooo actually wait. so i just opened a new tube of toothpaste and its the colgate blue gel ones with the white strips. you know what im talking about? well anyhoo i really like how when you first use the tube, it comes out like really nice and the stripe and blue gel is separated and it looks just like the picture on the box.........................that was my nerd moment =p
so i am once again back in the city......though ill be here for less than 24 hrs before heading back to school..........but these past few weeks ive been bringing home more and more clothes and i finally could no longer ignore the pile of clothes on my couch that needed to be folded and put away(and no the clothes does not stay in my living room i have an old couch in my room.............) but anyhoo i decided to totally clean my closet and what not and i have found quite a few gems. preview?
my super old track sweatshirt(from way back in the day)
my old softball uniform
all my WAF spera tshirts..... if i dont remember, someone remind me to posts some pics
okay thats it for now
ooo actually wait. so i just opened a new tube of toothpaste and its the colgate blue gel ones with the white strips. you know what im talking about? well anyhoo i really like how when you first use the tube, it comes out like really nice and the stripe and blue gel is separated and it looks just like the picture on the box.........................that was my nerd moment =p
